Evening Sky.

As the sun starts to set slowly the sky is filled with darkness. But though darkness prevails, the Moon still lights up the world.

I'm bored as usual and decided to do some blogging. It's 10:32 p.m. and I'm supposed to be at my bed taking a good nap but no. It seems that I can't put myself to sleep. Maybe it's because I'm afraid. -- Afraid to go to school, afraid to take some risks or simply afraid to make more mistakes when I wake up. Sure life is not how you want it but it is how we make it, but why is it that I can't put to action all of resolutions? I'm only 15 but I can say that I've experienced a lot since i entered High School. I've been to so many problems and been to so many troubles yet I can never say i have fully grown.

I think I need some rest, imma go now dear blogspot. Goodnight. :)

Dear Diary 12.12.09

It's Saturday morning and I woke up at 10 a.m., I gasped for air and smiled. I was so happy to be away from school and away from the people who keeps on hurting and loathing me. I wore my slippers and washed my face then I opened the computer. The first thing I did was check my mail and saw that I have 9 inboxes. I scanned them all and deleted them immediately because they're nothing but form spring mails. After opening my Facebook and tumblr account I decided to open my Form Spring. Anxiously i clicked open my inbox and immediately fluids started to flow out of my eyes. I was so lost in space and there's no shuttle to save me. The form spring questions are all from my haters. They said so many things that struck my heart. I was so miserable. I cried, I can't stop myself to cry. I was hurt. Hurt a lot. I was drowning and there was no one to pull me out of the blue. It has been 3 days already since they started nagging, destroying and ruining my name to other people but this time, it cuffed me off the ground. It was too much. I can't take it anymore, I want to talk to a friend but there's no one, and by that i mean i am officially FRIEND-LESS. because like what i said they've ruined my name. People started thinking I'm plastic which is not. What I acted and said in front of them are all real and not plastic like barbie.

10 minutes passed and my sister opened the door, I wiped the tears out and pretended to be happy. I can't take it no more. I'm alone, I have no one. I show them all that I still can smile and laugh, that i have no dilemmas or whatsoever. But deep inside if they will really look into my eyes, Maybe they'll see I'm drowning, I shriek for help and love and caress but NO. No one seems to see it. And i don't know what to do anymore..