It's Saturday morning and I woke up at 10 a.m., I gasped for air and smiled. I was so happy to be away from school and away from the people who keeps on hurting and loathing me. I wore my slippers and washed my face then I opened the computer. The first thing I did was check my mail and saw that I have 9 inboxes. I scanned them all and deleted them immediately because they're nothing but form spring mails. After opening my Facebook and tumblr account I decided to open my Form Spring. Anxiously i clicked open my inbox and immediately fluids started to flow out of my eyes. I was so lost in space and there's no shuttle to save me. The form spring questions are all from my haters. They said so many things that struck my heart. I was so miserable. I cried, I can't stop myself to cry. I was hurt. Hurt a lot. I was drowning and there was no one to pull me out of the blue. It has been 3 days already since they started nagging, destroying and ruining my name to other people but this time, it cuffed me off the ground. It was too much. I can't take it anymore, I want to talk to a friend but there's no one, and by that i mean i am officially FRIEND-LESS. because like what i said they've ruined my name. People started thinking I'm plastic which is not. What I acted and said in front of them are all real and not plastic like barbie.
10 minutes passed and my sister opened the door, I wiped the tears out and pretended to be happy. I can't take it no more. I'm alone, I have no one. I show them all that I still can smile and laugh, that i have no dilemmas or whatsoever. But deep inside if they will really look into my eyes, Maybe they'll see I'm drowning, I shriek for help and love and caress but NO. No one seems to see it. And i don't know what to do anymore..
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Aww :( Cheer up there, girl.
ReplyDeleteYou might think you're friendless and that no one cares, but that's not true at all. You only have connections to a small fraction of the world's population, and that's just what THEY say. You can't let them bring you down. You're loved. Whether or not you realize it. So go, smile --not to show them that you can--but because you want to, and you understand things will be better soon. And if you ever need someone to talk to, I'm free to lend an ear :)
Hello Leona. :) May I ask where you from?:)
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